It’s as if people think you’re doing this on purpose, or that you’re trying to get away with something. What they don’t see are the endless buzzsaws in your brain that remind you every second of every day that you owe someone, or a lot of someones, a lot. I lost countless hours of sleep worrying myself sick about how I was going to get by. People ask you ‘Why don’t you get a job?’ as if you were choosing to not have one.